Friday, July 9, 2010

Unplanned...

So our life has definitely taken an unexpected, unplanned turn. We found out a couple of weeks ago that we are expecting a new addition to our family about mid February. For the first couple of weeks I felt as if my whole world had been turned upside down. We were DONE and our family was complete. Wes has taken it all in stride and really I have been the one with a very selfish attitude. I really don't want to put my body through a pregnancy again. I like that we can go places and I don't have to carry a gigantic diaper bag. I like that the kids can enjoy about every activity and no one has to sit out because one is too small. And I really miss my summer time margaritas. After Levi was finished with baby items we got rid of it. No cribs, high chairs, baby toys or clothing. I had a friend offer her crib and I have no idea where we would even put it in our cozy two bedroom home. I just can't imagine being any more busier than I am. Just the thought of getting one more around in the mornings before school completely stresses me out. And the thought of having 4 little ones with me attempting to get groceries at Walmart makes me almost nauseated.
With all of that being said, I can't say that I am truly excited, but I have come to terms with it. And I am sure that one day I will look back on it and wonder what we would have done without him/her. My daily life is so blessed with Jaidyn, Addy, and Levi and we will just be blessed with one more.
Last week Jaidyn saw the picture of the ultrasound on my desk and asked me what it was as we hadn't told the kids yet. So I explained everything to her and she looked at me very seriously and said, "Don't you think we should tell Daddy about this?" Lol! And then the next morning I saw her laying on the living room floor and looking at the picture. She comes over to me a few minutes later and says, "Mom, I think this should probably be the last baby you have. You really are going to have your hands full." She couldn't have said it better. :)
I apologize to family and friends who are finding out our news by reading it on the blog. We are just now starting to share with everyone. I am sure that all will work out, after all, Life's A Dance and we will continue to take it one step at a time.

On another note, I do have lots of pictures to share of our festivities leading up the 4th of July.

We enjoyed a Springfield Cardinals baseball game with Papa JR, Mama LaLa and our niece and nephew.
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I'm stuck in the middle between these two crazy boys!!

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Getting an autograph...hopefully he will make it to the big leagues one day.

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We sat in the general admission grass area which was perfect for the kids so they weren't confined to a seated area. Addy, Levi and Heston were a little more entertained by the train going by than the actual game.

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Enjoying some frozen lemonade!!

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Watching some post-game fireworks!

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Levi enjoyed his first firework show in Daddy's lap.

Fishing and fireworks with Papa and Nana at the lake house.
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I don't think Jaidyn caught any fish this weekend, but she did catch 6 little fish last weekend off about 8 casts.

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Taking a ride in the fishing boat.

The kids and neighbor girls enjoyed the kids morning at the fair with lots of fun activities to participate in. We love when the fair is in town as it is practically just a few steps away outside our backyard. We spent several afternoons over at the sale barn watching the lamb, hog, and cattle shows. Levi was mesmerized by seeing the real live farm animals.

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Making bubble machine blowers at the library table.

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Blowing bubbles!!

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Jaidyn wanted to participate in this bean sorting race. It took forever for her to get her turn and it took forever for them to complete the bean sorting activity. The rest of the kids, obviously bored (I didn't blame them) ran off to the playground to play.

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Waiting their turn to climb through the giant caterpillar.

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Levi is fearless!! He didn't want any help from his sisters.
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Papa JR and Mama LaLa came for an evening and treated the kids to some carnival rides at the fair and brought along a firework pack. The kids are admiring the firework loot!
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The holiday weekend was spent at the lake and the weather was just about perfect all weekend long.
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All the kids took turns riding the tube. Even Levi rode it with Dad.

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Participating in some fun activities while waiting for our appetizers to arrive at Larry's On the Lake.

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Hula Hoop Queen!

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Feeding the Carp.

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Everyone is thumbs up!!

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Lovin the warm water.

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Sometimes it's nice to have connections.

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Don't they look cute in their red, white and blue?

5 comments:

  1. WOW...I'm just aching for you. My heart aches.

    For starters, I'm not even sure where I got your blog address from, but I had it book marked. I think you may have visited my blog once???

    In regards to your unplanned news, I really can't even imagine how you must feel. Now, please, please don't take me the wrong way, as I am on the completely other end of the spectrum in terms of wanting another baby. Yet, my heart aches for your sorrow. I will pray for you, my dear.

    I can JUST not imagine what you are going through considering, I JUST made a call this morning about inquiring about adopting from Vietnam. My heart ACHES for another baby, but have no uterus. I cry when I see babies and I know that we are going to have to wait for possibly 2-4 years to have this baby that is far from what we ever imagined our baby to look like. I dream of having another baby. All I ever wanted was a family. We do have a 9y/o biological son and a son who died 17 days after birth due to complications of being born 16 weeks early... then I had to have a hysterectomy. This left me feeling crippled, in the sense that I could no longer have anymore children.

    I would give anything to be pregnant again, so my heart truly aches for you. I will pray that you will find peace with your unplanned news.

    BTW, you have the MOST adorable family!!

    Tara
    www.begrateful4life.blogspot.com

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  2. I'm sure that things will work out just perfect in the end. They usually do. Life definitely is full of surprises and I'm sure once your new little one comes along, you won't be able to imagine life without him or her. You are a great mom and you can do this. The thought of just one child frightens me to death at times but you already have three so you can handle one more. Good luck and take care. You pictures from the ball game are great. Enjoy your summer.

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  3. Hello, I am following your blog silently for the last year and half. I want to congratulate you on the new baby to come. I am currently waiting for the GO to get our baby girl from the Philippines, and I am really stressed about it. All kind of question comes to my mind, because this child will change our life for ever (it is our first one), as this one will change your life. It is normal to be afraid, because you want the best for your actual child.

    I know life is not as we always planned for, by afterward, we know that it was ment to be. You are a great mom to those 3 kids, and you will be as great for the next one to be.

    Good luck and take good care of you!

    Tangie, mom to 15 months Rafaelle, still waiting in the Philippines.

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  4. I am sure this all seems very overwhelming and stressful right now, but it will work out. You are an amazing mom and seem to have a very close and supportive family to help out. You always have blogging friends if you ever need to vent. It won't be too long before you are excited too!
    The pictures are great, the kids look like they are having so much fun!!

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  5. Sometimes the greatest blessings in life are those we were not planning on....but God does seem to have a sense of humor at times. We think our lives are going one way--but God has a totally different plan. I can definitely relate (although I am not pregnant), the Lord gave me a tremendous precious blessing all of a sudden in January that I had not planned on either. I still need to get the invites sent out for my Ethiopia blog and you will be able to read the whole story. Congratulations on your newest blessing and little Levi will get to be a big brother...not to mention this new baby will have two sweet big sisters as well!

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